February 9, 2005 was my 23rd birthday! It was also the day I was diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis. I had absolutely no understanding of what that meant even.
It was surreal, I mean I can be dramatic so to actually have a condition was... Hard, I struggled a lot. You see I had just moved to Eastern Washington in November. It was just me. My family was 2000+ miles away. This was a period in my life in which my faith was stretched more than I thought I could bare. I didn't break and here I am today still standing. I thank God for giving me strength to endure this difficult period in my life.
From time to time it feels difficult. I don't like having to acknowledge that I should sometimes adjust and set boundaries for myself so that I feel good more often than not. Which I do feel good mostly but know that I could feel even better with some slight changes.
It is an interesting Disease that affects people very differently depending on the type of MS they have, there are four different types of MS. I would say I am on the better end of the disease as I do not suffer with many of the devastating symptoms others may. It is sometimes hard to understand because it is not a visible disease for some.
This is an MRI scan of my brain circa 2006? I cant remember but all the white spots you see are lesions that cause symptoms or flare-ups. The brain is an interesting piece of matter, one of the cool things about the human body is that it heals itself. So for some, lesions often repair themselves and go away with time. For others the disease is so progressive and aggressive that the body cannot heal itself fast enough. Also over time if the same spot is damaged it causes permanent scaring.
I am not sure why I felt compelled to share but every now and again I think about it and get down, or every now and again I think about it and feel like an overcomer! Nonetheless I wish it was something I did not have to experience but here I am living with it. The circumstances definitely strengthened my faith, oh also I no longer have to do injections. That was getting old . Through modern medicine there are now oral treatments! I also believe that MS sparked my creative bone ;) It was a very vulnerable place for me so it only makes sense that creativity was born out of it.